My 2020….

It’s been a long time since my last article and the truth is that this year I wasn’t as active as I wanted to be.  The truth is that this year was different in every way possible. The world as we know it is changing. We will be forced to change as well. But changes are not always bad.

I saw how my 2020 was going to go within the first month!. Shit started to hit the fan. As the months continued to pass by, the series of unfortunate events began to escalate each day. I was experiencing unpleasant events frequently. Friends began stabbing me in the back, I had to move to another country, secrets, drama, enemies and so on….. It seemed neverending!

I found myself cursing with no drive. Please, before you start judging me using your personal ethics take a moment, pause, and understand this. I’m practicing Magick. And if my family or people I love or even myself are under attack I will take down those who are threatening me by any means I deem necessary. All my curses were 100% justified. At least to me. Especially because I never harm those who tried to harm me. Very soon I came to the realization that the only Magick that was working for me was curses and hexes, and they were extremely effective, I must admit.

Very soon I experienced the Void. This can be described as a very deep and dark sort of loneliness. I have released all the anger and the injustice that I was holding onto, but to my disappointment, this didn’t make me any happier…. Balance is needed, for everything.

During my meditation in April, I guess I went too deep into the astral plane. All of a sudden I felt a strong energy surrounding me. I found myself walking in a desert, barefoot, wearing a hood. There was desert all around me, nothing else. As I kept walking out of the blue, a man appeared next to me, walking with me. He was wearing a hood as well and on His right hand, he was wearing a ring with a huge yellow stone. I would recognize His voice anywhere. 

“You have become an empty shell. Revenge tears the emotions and tortures the consciousness. The best way to fight chaos is not always with chaos.” 

At this point, I tried to say something, but he stopped me by raising His hand.

“No need to excuse yourself, I already know what you are going to say. Magick is not as simple as the majority of people believe. Yes, you can become skilled at negative workings, but in doing so you are very close to losing the ability to feel even the most basic of human emotions. As I said, an empty shell. If this is what you want, so be it. If not, you have work to do. When you are ready, I will find you again”. And with that, he disappeared.

3 days after I called Him, telling Him that I’m ready. For the next several months I was working with Him, with Lucifer, and with Clauneck. Our agreement was seemingly simple but at the same time very difficult. The first step was to remove and stay away from all toxicity. No articles, no spells, no more interacting with the occult community. This meant no more fights or arguing with faceless people online or in-person about things that didn’t really matter in the grand scheme of things. I came to the realization that most people are idiots and are most happy to stay oblivious to the real world around them. I cannot change the world!

The second step was to take care of my mind and my body. My schedule was one hour running in the morning, one hour yoga in the evening. I also began to avoid things in my life that caused unnecessary stress.

Many times I came very close to giving up on this journey. I just wanted to stop everything and continue my life as it was. There were many times  I was pissed off at myself, and there were other times I was angry with my Demons. Why was all this happening to me? But I’m a very stubborn person. I refused to give up.  Deep inside I knew that one day I would regret that I quit.

The Aftermath: I’m at complete peace with myself. My life changed dramatically and good things started to manifest in all areas of my life. I’m doing what I love to do, what I always wanted to do and it’s finally working!! I can’t say that my life is like a dream, but at least now I know who I am, what I want and I don’t allow anyone to treat me like their shiny toy, or underestimate me. I’m still practicing Magick and I must say from the moment that I left all this toxicity within the occult community, my spells are by far more effective. 

Revenge is a rocky path. Inside the viper’s nest, you must be a viper, too. But it is better to stay away from the nest. If you decide to get inside the nest, then be what you must be!

Also, there is a saying which says “Don’t you ever tame your Demons, always keep them on the leash” I will suggest to unleash them!! They definitely know what to do! 

Dedicated to King Paimon, Lucifer, and Clauneck! There are no words to thank you!